Entrepreneurship

Talking about entrepreneurship involves the education system in Indonesia, whereas the students are still given well-cooked material, not raw one. We all can see how students are dependent to the teachers and government in getting the knowledge. If only there is an opposite condition, it happens only in big cities.

Entrepreneurship is a condition which someone feels confident, dares to take risks, builds relationship easily, and has plans. An entrepreneur has the quality of a hunter, he/she focuses on the prey, without fear, with complete equipment.

To save Indonesia from poverty, the World Bank said that there should be 2% of the populace who work as entrepreneur. However, we have only 0,18% this year. 

As teachers we have the responsibility to increase the number through renewed education system by changing the teaching strategies from behavioral to constructive ones. We can also use the Ma'rifat way to anchor critical thinking among students through class discussion or self-contemplation. That way student will get the materials and make their own 'cake' by themselves.

Students should be encouraged by giving them the understanding that there is no absolute truth as Socrates had said: if someone feels that he has got to the end of the conclusion, he is absolutely mistaken.

Karangbong, 29112011

Welcome

Welcome,
Itu katanya.
Sangat singkat, ya? Yah, tidak apa-apalah, yang penting dia bilang welcome.
Ah, seandainya saja ada kata-kata lain yang dia katakan selain "welcome".
Apalah, 
Mudah saja sebenarnya. Tinggal katakan apa saja yang terlintas. Tak usah filter, deh.
Saya akan  baik-baik saja, kok.

RIRIS AND I

Mengapa Aku Kenang Lagi?

Setelah berbulan-bulan tiada komunikasi

Tiba-tiba aku ingin berjumpa kembali

Dear, dear, dear, diriku sendiri,

Apa kabarmu hari ini?

Kau tak akan salah sangka, ya,

Pasti kau langsung tahu ini aku,

Siapa lagi?

Memang ada orang lain yang seiseng ini sama kamu?

Tidak pernah ada, bukan?

Ya sudah, langsung saja kalau begitu,

Tidak perlu ditebak,

Meski orang lain masih menebak-nebak,

Tapi tak penting,

Yang penting adalah:

Apakah aku masih jadi orang yang penting di matamu?

Tentu aku berharap iya,

Sebab bagiku kau masih jadi orang yang berarti,

Apalagi dalam hitungan bulan kau ‘kan pergi jauh ke Kediri,

Meninggalkan aku yang pasti sangat sedih,

Dari :

Wong Kurang Kerjaan Yang Sayang Sama Kamu Sebab Takdir Tuhan Pertemukan Kita Yang Bernama Panggilan Sama, Selisih Tanggal Lahir Hanya Satu Hari

Maaf sebelumnya, tapi tolong setidaknya beri kesan yang baik sama aku agar aku tak perlu bersedih hati sebab kamu tiada respek/hormat sama aku

Sidoarjo, 14 December 2007

DAY 1

Today I’m so happy because I met Adek after nine months separated. I never thought of seeing her again since I heard from Itak that she hated me so much. However, today she was nice. She laughed with me, shared stories, and stared each other as if we didn’t want to lose a moment.

I knew from her that she still keep my letters. I was surprised. I thought she was mad to me and threw away the letters long time ago. Well, she didn’t. It proved that she still has much care to me.

After I got the permission to send Nia home, I was stopped by her mother and I could not refuse it. They took me to Samba cafetaria near the police station. It was not the best meal I ever had that day, but, I could never be able to describe the feeling inside. I kept smiling until darkness dropped me into bed(Riris).

Sidoarjo, 1 January 2008

DAY 2

If you asked me who is Intan two months ago I would probably say that she is my rainbow, but now, the answer will be different. Who is she? Well, I don’t know. I haven’t met her for weeks. The last time she saw me was about three weeks ago when she came to type her assignment. So, it’s not too strange to say that today, she’s no one.

To make it clear, I didn’t celebrate my new year’s eve with her. In fact, I traveled around the town with Nia and Riris. I asked permission from their mother and she gave it. That morning I went straight to her place and couldn’t stop smiling for Nia had not taken a bath yet, and she smells so horrible.

We went to a net center nearby until eleven o’clock. It was raining hard outside. Their mother sent me SMS worrying we would go far to Surabaya. I told her that we were so close to their dormitory.

Riris met her friends at the net center and I knew one of them, but I kept silent. I took them around to Giant, Matahari, and Plaza. Nia and Riris always refused my offer. I didn’t understand why. Fortunately they accept it. So, we had fun that day (Riris).

How to Deliver A Speech

Know Your Audience 

Never forget who you're talking to. You're speaking to a specific audience. And audiences, by definition, gather to watch something that's worth their being held hostage in a cramped room for an extensive amount of time. But don't worry: An audience is much easier to control than separate individuals. To woo audience members, you must do two things: find out what they want to hear, and figure out how to get that message across.

Know what the audience wants to hear. Each audience is different. Keeping that in mind, here's how to gear your speech towards a specific audience:

*Research your audience. Find out what the average audience member will be like. What will the average age be? What about their familiarity with the subject? Will they be fun-loving or stodgy? What are they expecting to learn from you? Thinking about these simple elements will set you on the right track.

*Use appropriate words and body language. A career-day speech in an elementary-school classroom is not the place to start pulling out terms like, "software development" when what you really want to say is "I do stuff with computers." But if you're giving a presentation to a group of programming colleagues, you should by all means refer to what you do as "software development." If the audience doesn't understand your words, your speech will completely fly over their heads. If the words you use are too simple, your speech will be drowned out by the snoring.

*Think about the image you want to convey. When you're speaking to children, smile a lot and look friendly and warm. When delivering a presentation to a group of distinguished colleagues, you still want to be accessible, but you must also maintain an authoritative air.

The whole point of giving a speech is not just to make it through all your index cards, but to also communicate something to your audience. Consider these suggestions to help you out:

*Treat the audience as a single entity. One trick of the trade is to pretend that the audience is just one person. When there's only one person you have to worry about, you feel more of a personal connection to him. Your speech will take back seat to the fact that you want the person who's listening to you to really understand what you're saying.

*Make eye contact. Nothing makes an audience more alert than a speaker who can stare down a crowd. Making eye contact means making a connection, and that is your number one goal. So let your eyes wander up from your notes as often and naturally as possible (this will get easier with practice).

*Consider letting the audience participate. It's not applicable to all speeches, but letting members of the audience participate during your presentation will warm up a crowd. It'll encourage them to pay attention, thus making you easier to understand. Participation can range anywhere from asking for a show of hands to dividing the group into little clusters and giving each cluster a task. However, you should never call on someone who is not prepared to answer, nor should you ever embarrass anybody.

Organize Your Speech 

Most speeches have three main components: the introduction, the body and the closing.The introduction is possibly the most important part of your speech, because you want to grab your audience's attention from the start. So come up with something clever, shocking or interesting right at the very beginning. Here are some possible techniques to use:

*Be dramatic. Say something like, "I'm about to reveal a plan that will drastically alter the face of humanity as we know it!" when your presentation is really about a new brand of facial soap.

*Tell a joke. Getting people to laugh will loosen them up and make them feel inclined to like you and hear what you have to say. Don't try this if your jokes are usually met by silence or groans. Test out your opening on your most brutally honest of friends.

*Tell a story. This will make the audience see you as a person instead of a boring public speaker, thus giving you an air of accessibility. just keep the story short (under 1 minute) and relevant to the rest of your presentation. The point of the story is to lead the audience into your speech, so if your anecdote ends with your dog saving the day, and your speech is about bank mergers, you might have a hard time segueing from your intro into the rest of the speech.

*Pose a question. Asking audience members for their input will make them feel involved, even if you're going to answer your own question.

The body is your speech. Everything you want to say should come out here, in an organized, un-trivialized fashion. Here are some possible techniques:

*Use a formal outline. You can prepare for writing the content of your speech by outlining your major points with Roman numerals. Most good speeches have two or three main points, each of which has a couple of sub-points or examples. Formally outlining your speech will ensure that your logical flow makes sense and that your audience doesn't get lost. It will also help you figure our where the holes in your speech are, in case you have to do some last-minute extra research.

*Mind-map. A technique developed by a British brain researcher in the 1970s, mind-mapping is a less stiff version of writing up an outline. Instead of making a list, you write the main topic of your speech in the center of a piece of paper, then draw branches extending from it that highlight your key points. Then draw more branches from the key points to elaborate on the sub-points. The good thing about mind maps is that they don't confine you to listing your ideas in any particular order; you can just use your creative juices and let the ideas flow. Then, once you've mind-mapped, you can create a more formal outline.

However you create your body, the key point is that you are organized. The audience must be able to follow your thoughts.

The closing--the way you end a speech--is almost as important as the way you begin it. The audience will be most restless at the end, and you have to find a way to tie everything together so they don't walk away remembering how badly they were fidgeting. So sum up everything for them in a few concise sentences and leave them with a witty line. If appropriate, also ask for questions. This doesn't mean saying, "Any- questions?-No?-I-didn't-think-so," then running away. Instead, after you ask for questions, give the audience at least 10 seconds to respond. If there are questions, keep each response short (under 1 minute), and never take a guess at an answer. If you don't know how to respond to something, take down the questioner's email or phone number and tell her you'll get back to her soon. Or you can just say, "Honestly, I don't know," and leave it at that.

Write Your Speech

Writing a good speech is something that people write entire books on. But here are some quick cheat-notes to consider:

Vary your word choice. Your speech will get very boring very quickly if you repeatedly use the same words. So use interesting and different words and phrases and keep things new.

Get a thesaurus. It's not cheating, it's expanding your vocabulary, and all great writers use one. A word of warning: Only use words that people know.

Keep the writing conversational, no matter how technical or unexciting the subject content might be. No one likes being lectured to, so there are a couple of tricks you can use to make it feel like a normal dinner-table conversation:

1. Throw out rhetorical questions as if you really expect answers; you might even get nods of agreement.

2. Incorporate words that you usually use while speaking, but not in writing, such as "okay" (as in "Okay, so we're all caught up...) or "see" (as in "See, the reason is...).

3. Refer to the event. If you're speaking at a graduation, refer to the graduation. It makes your speech sound more personalized.

Whenever possible, describe a feeling or situation in detail. The audience will follow you with more facility if you paint a picture instead of continually throwing out dry, emotionless words. One way to do this is to use action verbs. Instead of saying "learn," try "elucidate." Also, imagery can be very effective. Instead of simply informing the audience that female praying mantises instinctively bite off the heads of males after they've finished mating, you could try a more graphic and dramatic approach:

"Imagine you are a male praying mantis, in the prime of your life. You want--more than anything else--to fornicate. But you've seen other males do it and then get their heads ripped off and be promptly consumed by the females. What do you do?... What do you do?"

Humor almost always helps. It's even appropriate at eulogies. The essence is in the timing, though. It's a good idea to test out humor on friends prior to the actual presentation. And leave out any humor that is even remotely offensive. Often, self-deprecating humor (that doesn't completely destroy your credibility as a speaker) works well.

Rewrite your speech--many, many times. Even the most brilliant writer never gets it perfect on the first try, so you have to continually rewrite and tighten your speech. Get rid of superfluous information (no matter how funny it is), and make sure each line has a point.

After you've written your speech, it can be helpful to put it on 3-by-5-inch index cards. They are easier to carry around and shuffle through, and because you don't want to spend your entire presentation reading (and not speaking), index cards will make you feel more inclined to glance up when you flip through them. Just be sure to put huge numbers on the front of each card, in case they accidentally get shuffled around. But don't use the index cards as a crutch. Then, people will think that you're talking to your hand.

Practice Correctly

Unless you're a descendant of the Lincoln or the Douglas family lines, you'll need to rehearse your speech several times before presenting it. The best speakers become effective speakers through constant practice.

Methods of practice:

*Stand in front of a full-length mirror and try to look like a public speaker. Keep your posture straight and your hands in sight, and look into your own eyes. Tell yourself, "Gosh darn it, people want to hear what I have to say!", then begin delivering your speech. Be conscious of the way you look in the mirror and adjust yourself accordingly as you're talking. Make sure you're not being stiff, but always maintain an alert posture, or the audience will end up imitating your slump. Look into your eyes whenever you look up from your notes, and look up from your notes often.

*Tape-record--or, even better, videotape--yourself delivering the presentation. When you replay the tape, listen to determine if everything sounds coherent and logical, and watch the way you look while speaking. Look for eye contact, gestures and weird facial tics.

*Gather some friends and family, sit them down and deliver your whole spiel to them. After it's over, ask them to give you some constructive feedback (the last thing you need to do is have your confidence shaken). Ask them to tell you about what you did well and what you need work on. Ask them to tell you what they didn't understand.

*Rehearse small sections of your speech throughout the day. If you have 5 or 10 minutes, go over parts of the speech in your mind. These mini-rehearsals are easier to fit into your schedule, and will give you a chance to practice parts of the speech that are giving you trouble.

As you improve, see if you can memorize sections without relying on the notes at all. These memorized sections will give you prolonged time to connect to the audience.

Once you feel very comfortable with the material, don't be afraid to ad-lib some parts when you feel like it. This is your speech and you can say whatever you want; as long as you're sure you can get back on track, try speaking off the cuff. It'll help you sound conversational instead of like a robot.

Incorporate gestures. It is not fun to watch a popsicle; it is imperative that you occasionally use a gesture or two during your speech. Here are some tips for effective gesturing:

*Less is more. The more gestures you make, the more it takes away from the power of each gesture. So use gestures to emphasize important points. If you use too many gestures, you'll look like a windmill, arms waving about.

*Use gestures when using active words. If you're talking about a split between two people (or organizations or concepts), use a gesture that emphasizes it. If you're talking about a synergy or meshing of people (or organizations or concepts), use a gesture that emphasizes it.

*Practice your gestures in front of the mirror as you rehearse. And don't forget the most important gesture: to smile. It makes you look more comfortable and less like a victim in front of a firing squad.

Project your voice. Contrary to popular belief, projecting your voice does not mean shouting. When you project, you simply raise the volume of your natural speaking voice without losing control of it (that's when it becomes "shouting"). Think of the difference between talking to someone in a noisy restaurant, and calling your dog in from the backyard.

You must always project while giving a speech, even if you are presenting in a small room. Find the object furthest away from you and deliver your speech to it. During the first minute of speaking, monitor your audience members' faces (especially the ones in the back row) to see if they look confused. If you notice that they are not paying attention from the very start, stop yourself and ask if everyone can hear you. If there's no reply, you just got your answer.

Visual aids are not always necessary, but they are good to include if they help you get your point across. The key is to make sure that they add to your speech. After all, it's just plain dumb if, during a speech about saving the trees, you whip out a picture of a tree. We all know what trees look like. It is equally useless to present a very complicated diagram that someone sitting in the tenth row can barely see, let alone decipher. So keep your visual aids very simple. Images and uncomplicated graphs are best, but if you want to make a list of points to go over, keep each line of the list brief, and the number of lines just as short. Try five words per line and five lines per visual aid.

Know How to Handle Nervousness 

It's just a speech. Your life does not depend on it (at least, not in most cases). But if the thought of going out there and completely freezing up makes you freeze up just thinking about it, go through some of these relaxing exercises just prior to your performance. 

Physical preparation: 

*The night before, don't eat dairy or drink milk. They cause you to phlegm up. Also avoid soda, coffee, tea or other caffeinated drinks for at least 1 hour before the speech. They'll just make you even more antsy. 

*The morning of your speech, brush your teeth and use mouthwash. A clean mouth is a happy mouth. 

*Look presentable. Dress in nice clothes, comb your hair, do your nails and groom yourself so you look as nice as possible. As the saying goes, "Dress to impress." The nicer you look, the more credibility you'll have with the audience.

*Go to the bathroom about 30 minutes before the speech. 

*Deep-breathing exercises may seem cheesy, but they really slow your heart rate, lower your blood pressure and reduce your adrenaline flow. So try breathing in through your nose, holding your breath for 5 seconds and breathing out through your mouth. Do this at least three times, but don't go over six, or you may either keel over or start to hyperventilate.

*If hand gestures are a part of your presentation, shake up your hands to get the blood going. This exercise will make it more natural for you to move them around during the performance.

*Vocal exercises can help. Prepare your mouth by running through your speech at full voice several times. If you screw up, just keep remembering that the audience won't have a text and see where you screwed up. Just move on as if nothing happened.

*Most importantly, be confident. Even if you're not, the better you fake it, the more comfortable the audience will be with you--and thus, the more positive vibes they'll throw your way.

Mental preparation:

Think these comforting thoughts (and true facts) before and during your presentation:

"The audience's initial impression of me is made within the first 3 seconds of my appearance." This can be used to your advantage, because if you make sure you walk onto the stage with a bright smile and confident posture, you already have it made.

"I look better than I feel." Everyone feels like a wreck when they first get up there, but most don't look like one. In fact, most people who videotape themselves giving a rehearsal presentation are pleasantly surprised to find out that their wildly beating heart actually doesn't show up on the tape.

"The audience wants me to succeed!" An audience is made up of people who are not unlike you. They are not bloodthirsty animals. They came to hear you because you have something important to say. Also, because they don't want their time to be wasted, it's in their best interest for you to succeed.

"A mistake will not matter much." Granted, people won't forget a nasty belch in the middle of a serious point, but completely ignore stumbles or slight pauses. Just move on. Most people won't notice your mistakes unless you draw attention to them by panicking.

"The single best way to have a successful presentation is to prepare properly...and I have!" (Right?)

The average audience actually expects a speaker to be a complete snooze, and because you've made at least made an effort to do your presentation right, you are already going above and beyond the audience's expectations.

All About Dhyta

Dhyta, Sita, Donna,

Hari ini hari pertamaku di SMANDA,

tanggal 22 Mei 2009, kelas X.A dan X.B,

di kelas A aku mengenal Patrick,

di kelas B aku mengenal tiga siswi lucu,

Dhyta, Sita, Donna.

Meski mereka pakai bros inisial,

aku tetap sulit hapal,

khususnya yang bernama Dhyta,

karena senyumnya mahal.

Pandaan, 21 Mei 2009

 

Garis Umur

Kau bertanya tentang garis tanganmu,

aku hanya melihat,

tak berani lidah bersilat.

Bukan, Dhyt, bukannya aku mengabaikanmu,

tapi aku takut. Itu saja.

Bukankah Sita sendiri bilang, meramal itu dosa?

(dan garis umurmu yang pendek itu biar Allah yang tahu artinya)

Pandaan, 23 Mei 2009

Friendster

Supaya cepat hapal,

kalian minta aku lihat foto-foto di Friendster.

Kalian selalu bertiga,

Dhyta, Sita, Donna.

:)

Pandaan, 25 Mei 2009

Pusing,

Kau selau mengeluh pusing,

tak kuat berdiri, tak kuat duduk.

Matamu gosong,

Pandanganmu kosong.

Semalam pasti tidak tidur lagi.

Kau bilang: Memang aku tidak bisa tidur, Bu.

Mikir apa, toh, Dhyt?

Pandaan, 28 Mei 2009

Mata minus?

Jangan-jangan matamu minus, Dhyt.

Coba periksa mata.

Pandaan, 30 Mei 2009

Perpisahan

Kalian berpisah,

yang lain masuk kelas IPA,

kamu masuk kelas IPS,

sekelas dengan Patrick dan Nia.

Ruang kelas di ujung, bangku terdepan dekat pintu.

Sangat strategis!

Yang lain di ruang belakang dekat lapangan.

Perpisahan hanya hitungan detik, sebab nyatanya kalian tetap bertemu tiap hari di koridor depan X.B,

menyapa pak Mul,

menyapaku,

menyapa pak No,

menyapa .... Rizky!

Pandaan, di suatu pagi yang cerah tahun 2009

Gila-Gilaan,

Gila-gilaan, bersama teman-teman,

Gila-Gilaan,

Musik apaan itu, Dhyt?

Katrok!

Kau bilang, “Keren, tau, Bu. Dengerin, ta? Harmonisasinya keren. Beda ma musik murahan.”

Kalian pakai celana pensil.

Apaan, Dhyt? Kayak celananya tukang kebun.

Kau jawab, “Nih, lagi nge-trend, Bu...”

Dan ketika Rizky, dkk. mainkan lagu itu di pentas seni, kau tiada henti bergoyang, mengambil gambar, dan tersenyum.

Tak apalah, Dhyt, yang penting kamu senang.

Pandaan, 3 Agustus 2009

Sita, Hebat!

Sita, hebat! Risa, hebat! Ifa, hebat! Ulil, hebat!

Yuvi, hebat! Yola, hebat! Mira, hebat!

Kau bilang, “Sekalian saja, Bu, sebut semuanya...”

Biarin, wek...yang penting mereka semangat.

Final Voli Agustus 2009

Pulang!

“Bu, aku ingin pulang,” katamu.

Kenapa?

“Pokoknya pulang.”

Iya, tapi kenapa?

“Kepalaku berat.”

Nih, pulang sendiri, bawa motorku (kusodorkan kunci motor).

“Aku nggak bisa naik motor, Bu...”

Masa, sih? Segedhe ini nggak bisa naik motor?

“Kalau teorinya bisa...(tersenyum)”

Ada-ada saja, kamu ini.

“Lho, aku, lho gak boleh naik motor sendiri?”

Ya udah, pulang, asal di rumah ada orang. Kalau nggak ada, kita balik lagi ke sekolah.

“Masa, balik lagi?”

Ya, ‘kan lebih aman di sekolah?

“Ada budhe-ku, Bu... Pokoknya anterin aku pulang. Udah nggak kuat aku, Bu.”

Pandaan, Oktober 2009

Festival Musik TD

Band apa?

“Compass,” jawabmu.

Oh, enak, kok...

“Ya, iyalah, Bu...”

Suatu Sore di Januari 2010

Trisula

Kau duduk sendiri,

seperti biasa, dengan HP di tangan,

Dhyt, aku di sini...

“Bu, band-nya Rizky main...”

Iya, enak, kok. Asyik.

Yudho hebat,

“Padahal nggak kursus ya, Bu...otodidak.”

(aku mengangguk)

Suatu malam di bulan Februari 2010

Dhyta...

Tiap kali lewat kelasmu,

aku selalu ingin tahu,

kamu masuk sekolah apa tidak.

Dhyta...

Seringkali yang jawab Nia atau Riris,

“Nggak masuk, Bu...”

“Ke kantin, Bu...”

“Ke Rizky, Bu...”

“Paling juga, ada di koridor, Bu.”

tapi lega kalau yang jawab kamu sendiri,

“Bu,”

“Bu, Riris...”

“Bu, salim, Bu...”

“Bu, aku marahan ma Nia...”

“Bu, pusing...”

“Bu, Rizky gak bales sms-ku. Marahin, Bu.”

“Bu, bagus, ya?” (Lensa kontak abu-abu itu memang bagus di matamu).

“Bu, ajarin pidato...”

“Bu, naskah pidatonya ilang...nggak papa, ya?”

“Bu, Sita, lho, sombong sekarang, nggak pernah kumpul lagi. Alasane proyeksi, proyeksi, proyeksi. Enak aku, ya, bu, nggak ada proyeksi? Hahaha...”

“Bu, awas, ada pak Mul...”

Pandaan, hampir tiap hari sejak tahun 2009 sampai 2010

Madu dan Racun

Malam itu, konser J-Rock di Candra Wilwatikta,

kita bersembilan (Betul, nggak? Bantuin ngitung, minus Donna.)

Ikat pinggang dirampas oknum polisi, dan tiada pernah kembali lagi.

Di dalam,

kalian jingkrak-jingkrak,

mataku membelalak.

Di rerumputan ada sesuatu yang bergerak-gerak,

Astaghfirullah, ular...lari di sela-sela kaki penonton yang asyik berteriak-teriak.

“Makanya naik, Bu...” seru Imey.

Tapi tetap saja aku tidak bisa jingkrak-jingkrak,

takut saudara ular itu masih ada lagi yang mau lewat.

Ngeri!

“Ularnya takut sama kita, tenang aja, bu...” seru Rani.

Toh, aku senang lihat kalian semua senang.

Sampai-sampai kita malas pulang.

Yudho sama Sita masih juga berantem. Saling ledek.

Malam itu, kau naik motor sendiri.

Jangan kebut-kebutan, lho, hati-hati.

(Tapi kamu ngebut).

Ya, ampun.

Lupa tanggalnya, kira-kira April tahun 2010

Tentang Pernikahan,

Jangan sampai, Dhyt,

jangan sampai kamu tutup buku buka terop.

“Enggak, lah, Bu... Aku tuh, Cuma pingin tau aja.”

Memangnya pelajaran kamu sampai di situ, ya?

(mengangguk)

Nggak pingin kuliah dulu, ta? Katanya pingin kuliah di Surabaya?

“Bu...mesti mbulet.”

Waduh, serius pingin tau, ya?

“Iya. Jadi, siapa, Bu, yang berhak nikahin aku?”

Ya, ayahmu, Dhyt.

Kalau tidak ada, ya, kakekmu atau pamanmu dari pihak ayah.

Kalau mereka semua nggak ada, ya, wali hakim.

“Ayahku masih hidup, Bu.”

Katamu dulu beliau sudah nggak ada?

“Enggak, Bu. Ayahku ternyata masih hidup.”

Pandaan, Juni 2010

Pingin Pindah?

“Bu, aku pingin pindah ke Surabaya.”

Kenapa?

“Sumpek, Bu. Pingin suasana baru.”

Kenapa?

“Biar fair.”

Terus, temen-temen di sini bagaimana?

“Apaan? Wong aku gak direken, Bu. Podho sibuk dhewe-dhewe...”

Kalau begitu, kamu ikutan sibuk aja, gimana?

“Owalah,”

Lha, maunya gimana?

“Pindah ke Surabaya.”

Sekolah dimana? SMA 8, mau?

“Kok, SMA 8?”

Biar kamu ada temannya,

“Siapa?”

Tita, mantannya Patrick.

“Aku maunya yang deket TP...”

Oh, SMA 6? SMA Girly, nggak punya lapangan bola, dan sering dikunjungi pejabat.

“Girly?”

Pinggir kaly. Kalimas. Next to Grahadi. Kalau malam, depannya banyak cewek cantik tapi sebenarnya cowok, Girly.

(tertawa) “Gak ada lainnya, ta, Bu?”

Kenapa juga, pindah? Anak remaja itu kalau bisa serumah dengan orang tua, biar ada yang ngawasi. Kalau nggak ada yang ngawasi, kena pengaruh pergaulan, terus rusak, banyak contohnya. Mau rusak apa bener?

“Lha, aku sumpek, Bu.”

Ya, udah. Semua orang juga sumpek. Namanya saja hidup. Ngapain juga dipikir, Dhyt?

“Lama-lama bu Riris kayak bu Eny...”

Pandaan, kalau tidak salah bulan Juli 2010

Kisahmu,

Kau banyak cerita tentang hari-harimu yang melelahkan,

les Matematika,

kursus piano,

kursus bahasa Inggris,

kursus apalagi, sih?

Keluargamu, betapa kau ingin mereka bersatu.

Mamamu, betapa kau ingin berbincang lama dengan beliau, tak sekedar basa-basi semenit dua menit, dan betapa kau ingin beliau berhenti bekerja.

Ayahmu, betapa kau penasaran beliau ada dimana, dan betapa kau ingin bertemu dengan beliau untuk sekedar mengucapkan, “Pa, aku udah gedhe... Aku bisa ini, aku bisa itu...”

dan satu-satunya informasi yang kau punya hanyalah,

beliau tinggal di Malang!

Pandaan, 11 Agustus 2010

Rapor Rizky

Dhyt, Rizky, lho, suruh belajar.

Rapornya jelek.

“Udah, Bu. Dia aja yang malas.”

Kelelahan, mungkin, Dhyt. Tahu gitu nggak usah masuk IPA.

(kamu cemberut)

Pandaan, 5 Januari 2011

Belajar Toefl

“Bu, belajar Toefl ma Sita n Donna kok gak ngajak-ngajak aku, sih?”

Lho, lha kamu gak minta. Ayo, lho, belajar bareng. Jumat pulang sekolah, ya?

“Kasih tau aku, ya, Bu? Bener, lho.”

Iya, pasti.

“Ntar nggak jadi lagi kayak dulu?”

Kalau kita panjang umur, ya, jadi, lah, Dhyt...

“Bener, ya?”

Iya. Insya allah.

“Sms aku, Bu...” kamu berlalu dengan senyum.

Aneh, akhir-akhir ini kamu ceria sekali.

Pandaan, 10 Januari 2011

Tentang Sarapan,

“Bu, kalau makan banyak, ya? Pantesan gemuk.”

Kata anak-anak kelas X, nggak apa-apa kalau aku gemuk, yang penting sehat.

Lagipula, sarapanku ini, yang banyak ‘kan lauk dan sayurnya saja? Nasinya, lho, sedikit. Daripada kamu, tiap hari soto, nggak ada sayurnya. Ada MSG-nya lagi.

“Aku seneng, tapi. Lha sayur sekarang bahaya juga, nyemprotnya pakai pestisida.”

Iya, ya, repot juga. Apa-apa bahaya. Makan apa, dong, kita?

“Makan yang ada aja. Ngapain dipikir?”

Hahaha, bisa saja, kamu, Dhyt...

“Yang penting doa.”

Betul. Soal beracun tidak beracun, serahkan saja pada Illahi. Tetanggaku aja, kalau makan, nasinya ditaburi MSG, tapi sampai sekarang kok nggak mati-mati.

“Belum waktunya, Bu. Ada juga baru lahir langsung mati. Padahal belum merasakan MSG apalagi pestisida.”

Eh, sebentar. Kamu kok sering nemenin aku sarapan?

(Nggak pelajaran, ta?)

“Ssstt....”

Suatu Senin, Januari 2011

Di Kelasmu,

Hari ini aku masuk kelasmu,

kata bu Arlita, kita harus bahas Crop Circle.

Aduh, empat anak masih di luar, ya?

Heran, deh. Aku kok tidak merasakan kehadiranmu, ya, Dhyt?

Padahal kamu duduk di depan sendiri.

Hanya semeter dari aku.

Pasti waktu itu kamu diam saja.

Nggak seperti biasanya, deh.

Pandaan, 19 Januari 2011

Hari Terakhir

Di koridor samping 11-IS1, pagi-pagi sekali, Jumat itu, kita bertemu,

“Bu?”

Ya?

Kau cium tanganku dan aku pun segera berlalu, dan kau pun segera berlalu.

Ah, aku lupa mengingatkanmu. Kita belajar Toefl nanti siang.

Terlanjur pergi kau.

Siang itu aku sudah bersama Sita dan Donna.

Aku SMS kamu, tiada kamu balas.

Aku telepon kamu, tiada kau angkat.

Dhyt, kamu dimana, sih?

Kami kosongkan tempat duduk di depan BK untuk kamu, Dhyt.

Barangkali kamu kembali.

“Nggak mungkin, Bu. Dia, lho udah pulang naik motor tadi, boncengan sama Riris,” kata Sita.

Iya, ta? Udah bawa motor sendiri, dia? Beneran?

“Lha wong aku dari kopsis, Bu. Aku hampir ditabrak tadi. Dia bilang ‘bye-bye’ ke aku.”

Kok nggak kamu ajak ke sini?

“Lho, mana tau kalau bu Riris ngajak Dhyta juga...”

Owalah, Nduk, Nduk... Aku dari tadi naruh fotokopian di sini ini ‘kan buat dia?

“Ya, maap...”

Aku SMS kamu, Dhyt. Dimana kamu, Dhyt? Kembali, Dhyt. Kita belajar Toefl sekarang.

Sia-sia, Dhyt, aku miscall-miscall kamu.

Lalu malam yang gerimis itu aku berdiam di depan monitor, online aku, Dhyt.

Warnet dekat sekolah sedang sepi.

Aku buka account buat menyapa murid-murid atau sekedar ngomment status orang.

Hunter nge-chat aku.

Masya allah, Dhyt... nggak mungkin? Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raa jiuun...

Selamat jalan, Nak. Semoga allah senantiasa menjagamu.

Aku ke rumahmu. Pukul 21.05 WIB. Kamu telah datang.

Kamu diam. Aku di dekatmu, Dhyt. Aku semeter dari kamu.

Kamu nggak sendirian, kok. Kita banyak di sini,

tapi kamu diam.

Aku ingin cium tanganmu untuk terakhir kali,

tapi kamu diam.

Aku beringsut keluar,

dan kamu diam.

Kamu tiada memanggilku seperti kala aku pergi meninggalkanmu.

Kini aku rindu seruanmu, “Bu, bu Riris.”

Kami di sini, Dhyt. Kami ada di dekatmu.

Jangan kemana-mana lagi.

Pandaan, 21 Januari 2011

Dengar, Dhyta...

Dengar Dhyta,

Saat ini aku tidak ingin bertemu siapapun.

Sebagian jantungku telah pergi,

menyertai kepergianmu ke alam baka.

Biarkan saja aku,

meratapi hari-hari yang lewat tanpa sempat,

walau terlihat di kejauhan, entah mengapa,

kita bertukar kata dan cerita tak seperti biasa.

Waktu begitu jahat menggulung kita lamat-lamat,

dan aku ini tidak sedang merengek, apalagi menghujat.

Aku hanya merasa sedang mengayuh biduk ke hilir.

Jangan hiraukan aku.

Aku hanya mencoba mengenang hari-hariku bersamamu,

yang tiba-tiba direnggut keangkuhan hujan,

hujan yang sedikit namun banyaklah yang basah,

di hari tersentaklah kami bertiga,

karena baru sadar bahwa kami,

akhir-akhir ini,

abaikan kamu, Dhyta.

Sidoarjo, 23 Januari 2011